“Clara Bow” from TTPD
This song is a powerful reflection of the pressures of success, beauty, and identity, and how they’ve played out in my life. The lyrics resonate deeply with my experiences of trying to stay true to myself in a world that often demands perfection. Through this song, I see the toll these expectations have taken on my mental health and the ways I turned to addiction to cope. As I keep working through these challenges, I’m reminded of how important it is to be kind to myself and the strength it takes to stay real, even when the world is asking for something else.
“I Can Do It With A Broken Heart!” from TTPD
My husband always said he loved me, but our relationship was plagued by the consequences of my addiction. When things fell apart, I felt shattered, yet I kept pretending everything was fine. The need to keep up appearances while feeling broken inside is something many of us in recovery can relate to. The act of "grinning like I'm winning" while everything inside me was falling apart became a survival mechanism.