"When Emma Falls in Love" from Speak Now
"Emma Falls in Love" isn’t just a song about romance—it’s about being watched, adored, and craved. It’s about longing, not just for love itself, but for the feeling of being wanted so intensely it borders on worship. That dizzying, intoxicating high of knowing you’ve changed someone, that you’re the thing they can’t stop thinking about. Listening to this song makes me think about an ex boyfriend of mine—the way he looked at me, the way I made him feel, and the way I fed off that attention like a drug. It wasn’t just about love. It was about power. About being something unforgettable.
"Dear John" from Speak Now
“Dear John” is a deeply personal anthem for me, not because of a romantic relationship, but because it mirrors the complexity of being groomed and manipulated as a child. Writing this is part of my recovery—naming what happened, placing the blame where it belongs, and releasing the shame I’ve carried for too long. If you’ve experienced something similar, know that it wasn’t your fault, and healing is possible. Together, we can reclaim our stories and shine brighter than ever.
"Illicit Affairs" from Folklore
This song breakdown is about the affair I had with my addiction—the intoxicating pull, the lies I told myself, and the parts of me I gave away without even realizing it. It reminds me of the time I lost to that betrayal—the promises broken, the lines crossed, the pieces of my life that scattered like shattered glass.
But it also reminds me of the strength it took to come back, to face the wreckage and start rebuilding. Addiction breaks you into a million little pieces, but recovery is about picking up each one, no matter how sharp or painful, and putting yourself back together again. It’s messy, it’s hard, and it’s worth every single step.